I am “Believer”, the one who owns, writes and manages this site. My plan was to keep my personal life out of this site, but I feel that maybe the Journey I have been on for over a year, which is really just a continuation of my Journey with God that has spanned since 1990, may be of help to some. I pray the personal things I am about to reveal do not color any of the writings here by looking at everything with a different view. Originally I was concerned that people might take the “situation” and let it dilute the message here. Perhaps the message is strong enough to still come through!
Who I really am is of no real concern, I am just a 47 year old believer in Yeshua, (Jesus for those who do not know His true Hebrew name), who came to know Him almost 20 years ago. For the most part, I have not been much different from the large majority of believers, I have my battles with the flesh, with the world around me and the cares of this life while trying to walk a close walk with our Lord.
For the best part of last 12-15 years of my walk, I kept putting God on the back burner to some degree as I let the cares of this life crowd into my mind. Back in 1980 I started into the computer field and it consumed a great deal of my life. Up until a year ago, I have been making my living as a computer programmer for various companies and myself.
All those years I would convince myself that at some time in the near future I could move away from the computer work and more into work for God. I have always been an extremist in that when I do something I usually put in 120% into it, meaning other important things had to give in order to make the 120%. It is really pretty easy to live a carnal life and not think about it much, if we allow our self to justify everything.
Well, all this changed in November 2007. Just a few months prior to that, I mentioned to others that if things did not work out like I had planned with my current work, I was going to drop everything and move on to the things of God at the first of the year and put the computers on the back burner. That was just another attempt to convince my mind that God had some kind of priority, but I still had other things on a higher priority and it probably would not have changed regardless of the outcome.
One day in November, I had bumped something in the back of my throat that caused me some pain. I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. It sent chills down my body, even though I was not sure what it was, I felt my life just changed. In April 2008 (had lots of issues finding a doctor and dealing with health insurance) what I feared that day in November came to pass, they diagnosed me with later term throat cancer. At that time my journey became very real and nothing would ever be the same again.
The Journey I am writing about is what I have learned and the path of that learning. During the last year I have discovered a lot of different things in my faith walk with God and what seems like great lost secrets in the churches of today. Over the last year I have tried to share these revelations with people, but most people seem to be in the similar condition I was in before this journey began, wrapped up in the cares of this life and not putting in 100% with God. Some do more and some less, but everyone seems to feel like they have some kind of promise of decades of life ahead of them, which at this point in time, does not appear to be the case, but more on this throughout future posts on the Journey.
Hang in here with me and perhaps you will be touched by God to open your eyes to what it really going on and how everyone’s life is drastically changing and most do not have clue that it is happening. It is kind of like the story of Lazarus and the rich man in the book of Luke, the rich man found out that his life was a lie and he had not lived it as he should. His cry was to let his brethren know so they would not end up there. Well, I did not have to die to find the truth, but I still have that passion to let others know what I have found in hopes it will change their lives before it is too late. I currently live pretty much full tilt unto God and have found many things that are trapping people into a land of slumber such as I had found myself.
My prayer is that something will awaken everyone before it is too late…